Be by my side, and probably when that happens, I’d be back to what I am before.
It’s summer after all… and yes, the heat is on!
I’ve been constantly disturbed by the rising temperature and it’s already getting on my nerves.
I hope the rain pours now so it could take away all this anxiety.
And as the rain pours, there’s one more thing I want to be erased…
the pain behind my smile.
For I don’t know what I’ll write, and for I can’t think of anything to write on, then bare with me because this is so random. I say random, oh so here it goes.
Well, I just finished watching 13 episodes of the Korean version of Hana Kimi. I pity myself, because after watching those 13 episodes, I still don’t know the title of the series (well, I can’t read korean letters, and there’s no label on my dvd!). Anyway, my eyes were tired already so I stopped watching it. There are 3 more episodes to go and I’m done with it. I’ll probably watch the remaining episodes tomorrow. =)
Moving on, I need to share something related to the story of what I was watching a while ago. I just can’t understand how that film was able to show or say pretended to show that the female turned into a male. You see, tv tricks didn’t work, neither the cosmetics of the characters, because from the very start, the protagonist seemed to me as girl though disguised as male. I mean, look at him/her, he/she dressed like a male but clearly had a female face. Even if the viewers knew that she’s a girl, still, they believe that he is as man! How ironic! Why would we watch something like that, right? Well, even I don’t know the answer.
Imagine, we knew what the story is all about, we knew that HE is a female, but we continue to watch it still. Why do we have to pretend too? From the very start, we are fooled already. Viewers are dictated of what they should think, even before they have started to watch the movie. Get it? The thoughts on our minds are set already by the producers of the film. And that, I dislike.
I wonder why I continued watching the film, maybe coz’ I wanted to know the characters reaction when they found out what the girl had done. Or maybe I was just longing for the story to happen in real life. Yes, I wonder what if it happened in today’s time. Would it be possible? Maybe in Korea, but in the Philippines. LOL.
Enough with it, I’ve been spending so much time in this Korean thing and I think nothing’s great is happening in my day. HAHA. Let’s dwell on a much important aspect of life (should I?).
K. Here goes my other story. I PASSED all my subjects last semester and I ‘m proud to say I didn’t fail any. I even got a GWA of 2.09!!! Oh well, imagine that? This is probably one of the hardest sems ever, but I manage to pass all my subjects! How cool. Sorry for being to arrogant about it, but I am just proud of myself. If you just know what I’ve been through last semester, you’d probably say it was close to hell. Oh yes, a bit exaggerated, but you know, living such a life for a sem was so out of the line! It was so torturing, physically, emotionally and most especially MENTALLY! But all is done and over, and once again, I did it! I did become responsible for all of it. Amazing! =)
Oh, someone BBMed me. Just wait a bit, my thoughts are lost.
Back to writing. OK. So, next story. My summer class had started already. And since it started, I never had a great day yet. I don’t know. But the days seemed to just boring. I ‘m doing nonsense things, and nothing productive was done by my body. It was so different when last year, when everything was alright, when my move was planned. How can I ever forget? (if you know what I am talking about). Just as I hope something, someone, or anything come to me so my life this summer 2013 will be great. I pray to God so that he’ll help me do something essential. (I’m Catholic by the way. A Christian by nature.)
My random thoughts continue as I remember my professor-to-be this summer class. She met the class last friday, and mind you, she was so terrifying! YES! Like a monster, I suppose. I t was a large class but she appeared to be talking to small class. What a lovely time I had before I even got to class that time, but when she started talking, oh FUCK! I was serious this time, believe me. Her name was, forget I said this. She roamed around the isle of the classroom and randomly asked students! Of course, it was shameful for some because they were not able to answer some questions, but luckily for me, I wasn’t given the microphone to speak! I felt relived after leaving the lecture hall. Anyway, we’ll be meeting here for the rest of the summer, so I guess I should prepare to be called coz’ it seemed there’s no turning back when got to you. She was like the evil queen from the “Once Upon A Time” movie series that I’m watching also.
Since I mentioned once upon a time, I might as well share it to you. This past days, as I was saying nothing great is happening to me, I decided to browse some file on my laptop and was able to find this series. So upon finding it, I decided to watch it and yes, just like Hana Kimi the korean version, I’m not yet done with it. HAHA. The movie was great. It’s full of fantasies and fairy tales and all that. Try searching for it, you’d love it! I don’t want to dwell much on that now because it’s mood was so chaotic, just like how life appeared to be chaotic! But I promise, one would never regret watching it. =)
OK. I’ve been so talkative now. Time to end this chaotic post. HAHA. So, I bid you goodbye. I hope you don’t get bored reading my thoughts, rants, or whatsoever. Though my post is unworthy to be read, I don’t care! LOL. Good night. I hope you had blastful day, an awesome day, I suppose. Bye. =)
PS: spontaneity of my thoughts may lead to grammatical errors, or even typographical error. I’m sorry I’m still practicing writing. Might as well comment if you find so many errors in here. =)
Only if it’s easy:
…to say what I truly feel
…to express my real emotions
…to look straight in your eyes
…to be what you want me to be
…to do things with you
…to open myself up
…to give you what you need
…to make you feel I’m here
…to let you know you’re the only one
…to support you in all you do
and only if it is easy… to be your prince.
Jan 1, 2013: Christmas party with the whole Flores family!
Well, we do our Christmas party annually to welcome the new year and to thank and celebrate whatever happened to us in the previous year. I can say we had a blast this time! We had so much fun and it was surely the best day ever!
Anyway, here’s a picture of my Flores-Race family! From the left is my one and only brother, then my greatest Dad, followed by my very lovely Mom, and finally the greatest and cutest of them all, me! =)))
We took several pictures that night but I decided to just share this one! =)) (I took the liberty of editing this photo also, and I hope you’d like it!)
PS: my Dad’s drunk in here! LOL. But I think we still managed to took a nice shot! Cheers to that! XD
Thank you for being part of my 2012! All the memories, the fun, the not-so-good part, thanks that you’ve been part of it! You’re one of my friends, cheers to that! :p
Mentions to my dearests: family, Superfriends, UT, housemates, Kdocs mates, Transmitter, Sintassi Corretta, Cherubims, Central friends, Sci High people, Liceans, Ignatius ’10, Thomasians, UPLB SELES, UP SIBOL, UP friends, EE Bloc C1 and my bbm friends!
Happy New Year! Let’s welcome 2013 with a big smile! Good vibes all the way! Let’s be good this coming year! God bless!
- Billy Jhones F. Race, @asherrace